Lost

It's always dark in my world
There're whispers
There're moving shadows
Fear rules the night...

Where am I?
This is not where I want to be....
Where's the sun?
Where's the beauty?
Where's hope?

This is my nightmare...
I try to wake up...
Screamings in my head
Telling me I'm doomed!!!

I cry helplessly

I feel my strenght fading away....

Am I going insane?

Is this real?

Where is everybody?

Lost in the night I am

And there's no turning back for me ....

Whispers in the darkness

Endless pain,

Voices.....

I scream but I can only hear my echo....

Abandoned in this empty, cold world I was....

Lost in the shadows I am!!

Coldness...

Hopeless

I run faster and faster

In this haunted dream....

I wheep in this emptiness...

I scream so loud

But the pain doesn´t go away!!...

Coldness surronding me

Voices whispering in the night...

Terrified I am

Lost forever in this endless nightmare

Drowning slowly in this world of mine...

There's no turning back for me ... anymore!!!

September 2010

The Cry of the Wolf

I cry
I shout
I scream
Dark pain hurting inside...

I call for your name...
I weep
I mumble
I whisper
But you never came...

Blind eyes
Rough heart,
Can't you see I'm in pain?

Darkness everywhere
Shadows haunting me
I cry
I beg
But no answer came!...

Blood tears
Dark night
Spooky dreams...painful reality
It hurts inside...
This loneliness
This endless confusion...

I cried
I stumbled in the dark
I begged for mercy
I asked for an end!!...

But you never paid attention!!!..
Hard, heavy, endless pain.....
Whispering silly words in the night
I slowly became insane...

Senseless words lost in the wind
Hopeless heart suffering everlasting
Lost in the way
Poor soul,
So sad, so lonely...
Waiting for a sign...
Longing for attention
Wishing for an end!!

No more cries
No more silence
No more waiting for …
It's all over now.!












Julho 2010

Between Worlds

When the sun rises
And a new day begins,
Full of hope,
Full of dreams
You think nothing can ruins this feeling...

You make plans
You are thrill of joy
'Cuz you really are feeling good today...
The world's still blue like the sky above you...
And like a child
You dance and jump
In a field of flowers full of beautiful colours
And pleasant scents...

You believe this is real!!...
And you don't want it to come to an end...
Hapiness forever
Good feelings
Endless hope
Always love...

But soon the night comes
And all you can see are shadows!!
All that you can fell are cold chills
All over your body and soul....
All you can see is eternal darkness!...

No more warmness
No more laughs...
And in the night you can smell rottenness...
All that you wanted to forget
All that you wished never to remember
Haunts you all of a sudden...
And the shadows embrace you like
You belong to them.....

Deep inside you smile
And you say this is just a nightmare,
I will wake up
And everything's will be all right!!...

However, the sun never rises again
And you realize that your mind is playing tricks with you...
That your heart is frozen and your soul lost forever!!

It's full moon …
The blue became black...
There're no more flowers
Only death and darkness...
No more warmth
No more hope
Only despair and this feeling of everlasting emptiness...

What should I do?!
What do I must think?!..
Am I mad?
Have I died?!...
What is this lackness of life?...

Save me....
Pray for me...
Take my heart and bring it to life again....
Find my soul and show it the way back...

Save me from this darkness
Wake me up from this nightmare
and let me feel again....



Julho 2010

Angry Soul

I'm lost in the darkness of life
In an empty place going nowhere...
Do I have to feel so sad?
Where should I go?
There're questions...
There's pain...
There's loneliness...
There's a heart and a soul...
Hey! Are you listening?!...
Why did you leave me behind when I needed you so bad?
Why didn't you give me strength when I was fading away?!...
Why? Tell me because I don't understand...
What's going on?...
I'm feeling so lonely,
Lost among my thoughts!
Tell me, why am I suffering so hard if I have you by my side?
Why do tears roll down my face?
Tell me...'cause I can't stand it any longer!
In your arms I fell so secure
In your arms there's no sadness
In your arms I feel your warmth and love!
Oh! I want you so bad that it hurts inside !...
I need you so much, don't you know it?
You're my light
You're my darkness
You're my treasure
Your my heart and soul
Your my hopes and dreams...
You're everything for me
All I ask from you is your patience
All I need from you is your love
Please, don't be angry with me, I'm feeling so lost!!
the pain is in my blood... Please, help me to break it through!
Don't leave me now...
I don't ask you to understand my pain since I can´t understand it myself
But forgive me for don't let it go!!..

written around 1994

Heavy Heart

It's full moon night
And I walk through the woods
Lost, confused, crying,
Alone in this lost world!
Only me and the moon light
Looking for place
Searching for my lost soul!!...

Tears drops marking the path
Small footprints of a heavy soul
Wandering on this empty forest....
Where are you?

So lonely,
So full of pain
I still walk through the woods...
So lost, so desperate...

Lost words left unsaid
True feelings hold inside
Things that were never made!!...
The moon still shines in the night
Following me like a dark shadow...

Where are you?
It's cold in here...
Let me rest for a while!
Long is the night...
Infinite is the pain....

Empty inside
I still wander in the dark woods
Regretting, crying
Searching for my lost soul...

It's too late to change the past
The present is already gone...
Where are you?

Lost soul... lost words
So many regrets...
It's full moon night
And I walk through the woods,
Alone in this world...

It's time for a sleep..
It's time to let it go...
Give in to the night
for so lost you are …
Don't fight
Don't cry....
Just go to sleep......

No Regrets

I Want to smile ...
But I can´t!!...
I'm so lost in the blue...

I want to run to you
To hug you
To kiss you to hold on you forever...
But the pain is the winner!

I want to hug
And tell you that everything will be ok
To tell you that i am here...
I want so much to kiss you
And tell you that I'm still the same...
But I can't!...
I can´t tell you that anymore
'Cuz inside I know I would be lying to myself...to you

I want to smile
I want to embrace you and kiss you
And stand still like this forever...
But the pain doesn't let me ...
The pain is too strong...
The sadness is too big.....

I just want you to know
That I still love you
That you still are the air I breath
You are my soul,
My life,
My hope....

I just want you to know
That I fight every single day not to loose you...
But I can feel you running through my fingers...like sand!

I cry,
I scream inside
But you can´t hear me...
You're lost in pain too...
You have lost your faith,
Your hope, your path,
Your strenght...
I do suffer for you
'Cuz can fell your sorrow!!

But please understand...
My pain is too strong
And I just can´t run any further...

Please forgive me ...
For my weakness
Please forgive me for failing...
For letting you down ...
But please understand
That I'm trapped in this web of pain and darkness...

I just want you to remember me as I once was...
Cheerful, full of hope and will
Adventurous and strong...
Just hold on to those memories
The best of me!

I just want you to remember me
Like the person I was when we first met...
Keep in mind the girl you fell in love with...
Hold on to the good moments
We spent together
How we both could break through all the obstacles...

I just want you to know
That I'm in great suffering
And the more I try to turn back in time I just can´t....
It's too late...I'm a changed person
The pain and the darkness took over my soul...

But I want you to always remember
That I still love you as before
That I still want to hold on good things...
That you are the sun in my darkness!!

Please forgive me
But it seems that we have a winner -pain!!!

Never forget to always follow the light
Don't let the dark take control of your heart..
Promise me
That you will never lost hope like I did
Promise me
That you will never give up of life...
And when the night falls
Light a candle to help you on the journey...

Always keep your eyes in the stars
'Cuz I will be there...
Watching for you,
Showing you the right path...

Promise me
that you will be better than me...
And never forget that we had an all time love...
And this you will never loose!!

Solidão

Caminho pela noite
Cansada... ferida!
Apenas a terra sente as minhas lágrimas....

Noite fria e escura
Sem estrelas, sem sons
Sózinha e confusa
Caminho sem saber para onde vou!!...

Dor constante e impiedosa!
Lágrimas perdidas
Sonhos deixados para trás
Desejos frustrados e falíveis!

Dor constante e impiedosa....
Pela noite caminho
Pela escuridão vagueio!
Dor insuportável porque não me abandonas???

Nada faz sentido
Tudo está perdido...
tristeza constante
Que inundas a minha alma
E devoras a minha luz!!...

Sózinha.....
Caminho sem saber muito bem para onde vou..
À procura da luz perdida
A tentar encontrar o meu lugar
Nesta vida sem sentido!!...

Procuro respostas...
Procuro esperança...
Procuro a tua mão
Nesta noite fria e sem fim
para me salvares!

Mas longe te encontras
E perdido ficaste na minha sombria angústia...
Perdido estás para nunca mais me encontrares!!!